An Update on retep, Kepli and Ekim

Reflective material could repel visual hallucinations.

Back in April, I wrote a blog entry titled “Delusions Of Telepathy And The Characters In Them”.

https://localsbeforelegends.com/delusions-of-telepathy-and-the-characters-in-them/

In that entry, I wrote some about retep, Kepli and Ekim. Those are the names that I’ve so far attached to three of the characters I see as human figure hallucinations and hear via auditory hallucinations on a daily basis.

They do not want good things for me. I see and hear them as bad voices and bad characters, and they have their own groups of hallucinatory characters, figures and voices that try to help them despite the good voices and characters trying to help me and keep them away.

Today, I would like to relay what the good hallucinatory figures and voices are observing as they try to help me and keep retep, Kepli and Ekim away.

retep.

“retep knows it’s God,” began one of the good voices. “He will fake mental health problems, mainly voices as a “symptom”, if he gets into a situation he doesn’t like. The bad thing about him doing that is that he knows that voices are coming from spirits with their own minds. The spirits are real and the voices are real in a different dimension than what humans see as normal. God is running that dimension.”

“Plus, there are people out there truly having difficulty with schizophrenia and mental health who don’t know that God and others, good and bad, are controlling them with voices and they end up trusting and acting on the bad voices that are not from God, angels and 1s. There are ways for humans to telepathically induce voices to other humans. In these days and times, it’s usually not with good intent. If you drink water and project blue light, it will bring Peace. retep doesn’t want that.”

Various voices, both good and bad over the years, have been telling me with increasing frequency that the retep character will try to change his hair and appearance at different times to impersonate other spirits and humans, including me. They’ve even told me that he will imagine those faces on his head for effect in telepathy and impersonating others.”

“Video game character creation, AI and virtual reality manipulation are attempts to keep people from learning about schizophrenia, and the internal voices that everyone has in their head,” the voice finished.

Kepli.

“There are 2 things he wants for you. Women and money,” one bad voice blurted out.

“That’s not true,” a good voice interjected. “Kepli is trying to be good. He doesn’t want too much change to happen too fast. If you get too many women who don’t have good intent for you, and for the world as well, he might donate to bad causes. If you get money, one cent, he does bad things to Decca.”

“Now, Decca wants good things for you because Decca knows that.”

Ekim.

One voice began, “Ekim needs you to not get your medical records. When he feels distressed, he doesn’t want you to make progress.”

In conclusion, retep, Kepli and Ekim still don’t want good things for me. I see them sitting in chairs or on the floor of my apartment. I’ve recently taped a lot of aluminum foil (about 200 square feet so far in the past month) to the walls in my kitchen, bedroom and living room.

You may remember a blog entry I wrote months ago about an idea of mine that reflective material repels visual hallucinations.

https://localsbeforelegends.com/can-reflective-material-repel-visual-hallucinations/

I attach aluminum foil to my walls to repel visual hallucinations, and I am pretty sure it saves energy within the apartment and saves money on utility bills.

I’m still taking medication and receiving therapy, and doing the best I can to navigate through my illness, schizophrenia. Please take care, as the weather is changing around the Earth.-Chris Milbourn

Saying “That’s Not Me” and Responsibility of Thoughts

One of my favorite 1990s r&b songs.

Hello! I hope you’re all doing well! Today, I’d like to write about taking responsibility for invasive thoughts, and choosing not to, as well.

Some of the voices in schizophrenia will give the patient good ideas and at other times, some of the same voices will give bad ideas. Sometimes the accuracy of the information is correct and accurate, other times it is not (for good reasons and bad reasons).

Sometimes they seem like they want the patient to know more than is appropriate, other times they will try to occupy the patient with activities so the patient doesn’t think much at all.

They will also say ridiculous things, true and false, good and bad, and make the patient feel like they’re responsible for the ridiculous ideas. It’s something a lot of people with schizophrenia likely struggle with more if they’re having delusions that their own thoughts can be heard by other humans.

So, if I’m hearing thoughts in my voice and I know the external characters and voices behind them want me to feel responsible for them, often times I say aloud or merely think the trusty phrase, “That’s not me”.

If I think and/or say that phrase over and over again, perhaps 50 times or more in just a few minutes time, it generally quiets them down.

“There’s a (competition) for your personality,” one voice just said as I was typing this. A lot of them want me to worry.

Knowing there are voices that are not the patient’s own, and knowing that the patient thinks their thoughts are audible, saying “That’s not me” can be my way of assuring my neighbors that the ridiculous thoughts are not my own, even if it’s all just in my head. Saying “That’s not me” goes a long way in relieving paranoia.

Please take care, as the weather is changing around the Earth. I hope that more can be learned about schizophrenia in the future.-Chris Milbourn

A Very Brief Summary Of What The Voices Have Been Telling Me Lately

A few records that I’ve bought in recent months.

In this blog post I am going to bring up some things that the voices in my schizophrenia experience have been saying to me lately, summarized in one fictional walk from bed to the coffee maker in my kitchen…

“Now, do 10 push-ups for the south side.”

These are the kinds of things I hear from voices in my schizophrenia experience, among thousands of others in a typical day. It was about 10:00 pm and I was laying in bed with headphones on, listening to MIA’s mid-2000s hit “Paper Planes” on repeat in iTunes.

I’d been trying at even newer levels recently to try to take care of my mental health. I even made a new early-to-mid-week exercise bike routine nearly a month ago that I’ve been enjoying quite a bit.

Now, I was under a decent impression for a couple of years that I shouldn’t exercise past 5:00 pm. Regardless, while half-decided on whether I should do the extras or not, I decided to remain laying down for a while more to daydream about visiting my old neighborhood once again, and perhaps move back, now removed some 100 miles in a low-income apartment complex.

My old neighborhood, nested in basically the furthest southeastern pocket of Kid City, is a pillar in my memory of race relations and diversity. So many of the ideas I currently hold about Peace and the importance of race relations stem from living there and enjoying it while still very young. I’ve lived in a neighborhood where a lot of whites and blacks were getting along in community.

“Don’t forget that,” one of the good voices advised, while I was still laying down.

One thing that the bad voices do, on the other hand, when I do think about that neighborhood, is try to overrun my stream of thought with what Peace is not.

The bad voices will pummel my internal dialogue with racial slurs, ideas about fast food, and expensive shoes. They’re trying to give me impressions of how black people live.

“So you think you want to be a n——, huh?”, one of the bad voices asked. The bad voices know that I used to have a lot of black friends. The more I do to help my mental health, the more the bad voices try to keep me from black people.

They, the bad voices, are constantly trying to show me that they have a tighter grip on the black people I used to know and enjoy, than I could ever assume. However tight of a grip that really is in truth, I don’t know.

In my apartment, I have items in my living room that I try to use as symbols for Peace and confidence. I have two art pieces, one a painting and one a print that I bought or received from a couple of black friends of mine who I used to know years ago. I would think that they’re still making art to this day.

Another item is a handmade, wood chess board that my uncle gave me a few years ago. The also handmade ceramic chess pieces on top of the board (made by either my grandfather or a different uncle), are what get compliments from pizza delivery drivers when they’re at my patio as my front door is hanging open behind me.

My plants in front of my window, elevated in pots on the surface of a vinyl record collecting shelf, do offer calm and growth at the same time.

“In 5 years, people are going to be like, ‘I wish I wouldn’t have gotten vaccinated’,” began another voice. “One of the vaccines is going to lead to birth defects. If one of the parents has the vaccine and the other doesn’t, it won’t be as bad. If both parents are vaccinated and they produce a baby, you’ll see malnourished babies that are born drastically underweight, not gaining weight, and not able to make it.”

Another voice chimed in, “Protein vulnerability.”

I still don’t know if these came from a good or bad voice. But for the next 30 minutes or so, the voices traded conversation about miracle babies that would survive on fruits and vegetables and no protein, giving way to some of the world’s brightest and smartest thinkers and leaders that the planet has ever seen, in the coming generations.

I am so grateful that I’ve been able to reconnect with therapy, psychiatry and medication in recent years. So often nowadays, now that I’m receiving treatment again for schizophrenia, these are the kinds of ideas that I’m asked to dismiss or accept. I am so grateful to have a better grip on my behavioral health than I did from 2016 to 2018.

I decided to get up from bed and go to the kitchen to make a couple more cups of coffee. I start 3 cups of coffee every morning after my exercise bike routine, and 25 days out of 30, I don’t drink any more than that.

“Remember also, you will drink more coffee when the weather gets cooler,” one of the good voices assured me.

With “Paper Planes” still playing in my headphones, I scooped 3 spoonfuls of coffee from an aluminum can and dropped them one after another into a fresh, dry coffee filter.

“Stock up on quinoa.”

I’m pretty sure this was from a good voice. I’ve been eating about 3 spoonfuls of quinoa per day for about a month. I’m not exactly sure if quinoa classifies as a “superfood”, but I think I read online in recent weeks that it actually does.

“Get one package of toilet paper that you don’t touch, and one case of water that you don’t open, unless there’s grid shock and you can’t get to a store.”

Sometimes, I appreciate the voices. As for the 10 extra push-ups, I still haven’t decided.

Peace (2), Love (1), Knowledge (3), Understanding (4) and Respect (5).-Chris Milbourn, administrator, www.localsbeforelegends.com

Internal Voices And Human Thought In Schizophrenia

Hello! I hope you’re all doing well! For my newest entry on LBL, I would like to write about internal voices, human thought and what could make the mind difficult to navigate, and not just for those with schizophrenia.

In schizophrenia, perceived internal voices will speak as hallucinations in the sound of other voices, both familiar and unfamiliar to the patient. Often when a schizophrenia patient experiences a first, second or new “break” (a new onset of symptoms usually separated by life phases, years and aging), they realize and/or become confused by which voices to validate because they assumed that their thoughts were theirs, and theirs only. But if your thoughts are being articulated into a voice that you haven’t heard in a long time, perhaps years, or the sound of a voice that you’ve never heard before, then it’s time to question your thoughts. Many people with schizophrenia rely on the voices, good voices and bad voices, to help guide their life decisions.

I would think that succeeding in life despite a schizophrenia condition comes with learning that God and higher beings are playing a tug-of-war for my internal voice, internal dialogue and internal language. There are successes and failures along the way.

What’s even more difficult than that, is knowing that higher beings and God and the bad voices as well, are trying to be more accurate than the rest of the beings (good and bad), who are all trying to impersonate, or copy, the sound of your own internal voice in your own mind. They usually want you to trust what they want you to think, and impersonating your own internal voice is probably the surest way to do it.

In the mid-2000s, it was commonly thought that roughlly 1% of the Earth’s population had schizophrenia. Some people with schizophrenia in Asian and European countries were thought to be revered for their knowledge. But how common are the symptoms of schizophrenia, really? Is it much more than 1%, much less?

If you feel like your voice is being matched to dialogue that you don’t really believe or wish to pursue, but it won’t stop, week after week, what do you do? Do you begin praying? Do you eat? Do you smoke? Do you practice relaxation techniques?

Who has thoughts that are really just their own and no one else’s? I think God is responsible for all human thought in those who have severe mental illness and in those who don’t. The lesser higher beings use internal voice impersonation to distract us from what God wants us to achieve. We don’t often hear him because we’re thinking what he wants us to know at that time in our own voice, usually.

Real humans interfering with the thoughts of other humans and beings remotely, in a telepathic sense, is something I will likely write more about in the future. Perhaps around that time, I’ll wonder in writing about real humans impersonating the faces of other humans for telepathic effect.

Schizophrenia has been referred to as the most mysterious illness, mental or physical. A wave of mental health-related advice and news has come into society in the past 5 years or so, specifically.

I hope you all take care and prepare for seasonal weather changes, in all parts of the Earth.

Peace, Love, Knowledge, Understanding & Respect.

-Chris Milbourn

Drawing: Climate Change

Drawing by Chris Milbourn for Locals Before Legends

Hello! I hope you’re all doing well! My last blog entry was about grape seeds, and my newest one also has to do with the color purple.

For years, I’ve thought of purple as being a natural anti-inflammatory, but just warm enough to keep something from freezing.

A few years ago, I had an idea for something that may be able to help climate change, some kind of spacebound net of a purple light filter that could hover somewhere between the sun’s direct rays and Earth’s equator, giving a cooler temperature to Earth’s equator. Perhaps the filter net could generate even cooler, or darker light to Earth’s equator at different times throughout a year’s cycle around the sun, and throughout the daily rotation of Earth, which brings night and day to different parts of Earth at different times.

It’s a crude drawing. I just wanted to include it in a blog post here on LBL, but feel free to share! Please take care, and thank you for reading!