You will delay growth if you change your mission and/or instructions the closer you get to what your gut instinct drove you to get active about, and it will show that someone wanted to grow more than the other.
For some, they’ll also delay a better science for themselves in the afterlife.
Shout out to all the other disabled, single males whose neighbors leave home only to play audio from pornography from a remote controlled speaker while they’re gone, to torture these males, putting them past the point of leaving home and meeting women.
This is the kind of thing that’s been attacking me for the past year and a half. It’s not fair. I want it to stop.
Sometimes it gets worse when they actually come back home.
Some of you are going to try to live my life when you get to hell. Will you have better muscle memory than I had in my white milk weakness from being raped/molested and hypnotized my whole life?
Most of you would take your own life.
Many of you want me to die from a self-inflicted gunshot wound so you can deny that I was better than you in the end.
What the afterlife spirits will tell you is that if they actually had their memories wiped of all the abuse (trying to live my life, of course), it would be easier to not repeatedly kill themselves.
So tell me who is it that is so blessed because he couldn’t be too smart? Who couldn’t/and probably won’t outsmart his own savior purpose?
The devil rewards people with military experience who go to hell with and for physical strength. The devil knows, regardless of whether those people were left or right wing, they have potential to be “effective rapists”, and potential to make people with better minds and intent take their own life based on rape torture from them.
I do not know of any respect that I have from people with military experience, in hell or not.
I do not know if people in hell already have some superhuman qualities, nor if they, those afterlife spirits with military experience and all, exist like I do (trapped in a human shell).
Time will tell for most of us.
Another rhyme podcast from me. This should be in the same blog entry category where the rest of the other spoken word recordings are, as well.
When I’m doing pushups, the chances of war decrease and current wars have greater ceasefire progress. For myself however, I do pushups to calm me down. The chances of conflict in my life and around the world are higher if I’m not doing pushups on a regular basis. Historically, the devil and satan impersonate me more while I’m getting pushups done on a regular basis, so they could tell lies about my pushups supporting war efforts, and lies that I’m preparing to fight. It has been nearly 3 years since I’ve been able to get pushups done every day. The world has suffered for it. I have suffered for it. I used to like using exercise bikes, too.
Additionally, if I’m able to get pushups and physical exercise done on a consistent basis again (which I plan on), there will probably be a period of about 2 weeks or more where newer testosterone will affect my mental health. After I let the angry thoughts out during physical exercise, things will calm down.
EDIT: The time after consistent exercise to achieve a reduction in angry thoughts based on biological alterations could be different than previously noted in the ninth sentence. 6:26 pm CT U.S. April 23 2025.
