Hello! I hope you’re all doing well!
I’m still continuing medication and therapy for schizophrenia (I’ve been living with it since at least 2004). I’ve also begun, or restarted to some extent, cognitive therapy. It’s helping me identify what the bad voices want my first thought or gut instinct to be, and how I can think slower but more accurately and effectively to benefit my mental health in general.
Today, I would like to bring up a topic that could be gut-wrenching for some to think about.
Honesty about sexual abuse.
I believe that the best way for us to achieve a connection to God and his helpers, is to talk to God as if he is either an auditory or visual hallucination, or both. Hearing his voice in a space that sounds like it’s in your own head without much known vibration affecting your ears, walls or items on your dresser, is less disturbing than hearing what sounds like real noise and voices at your door or in another room you can’t see but could make you startled.
Talking to God all day can eventually appear to you as an experience similar to schizophrenia, because you’re hearing a voice that’s in your own head that you’re not trying to create.
He, is at some point, whether in your current life or after-life (depending on how necessary he seems to you) going to want you to talk about sexual abuse.
It’s an embarrassing topic for a lot of people, but if we deny all memories of sexual abuse when talking to God, it will keep our connection to him lower than what could have been.
There should not be any neglecting anything we’ve done in our current life once we die and go to the afterlife because all of the spirits there will know already, and God will too. But people can be led astray after they die as well.
God and his helpers are going to want to know what sexual abuse was done to us and our thoughts on it. He is also going to want to know if we have been inappropriate sexually with anyone to any extent.
“Oh, do you think you might have f——- her too hard that one time?”
“Why do you think he was uncomfortable when you touched his a— when he was on top?”
These are questions describing straight, as I understand to be heterosexual relationships. We will be asked, at the latest by the time we get to the afterlife, even worse questions.
More and more neglecting of the things we tried to forget about for most of our current lives will lead us to a place in either the current life, and/or at some point in the afterlife, where we’re not having the best communication with God that we could.
I think everyone is going to have some time in h-e-double-hockeysticks, and some time in Heaven.
I believe there is a connection to God we all can open personally as a way to even shave some away from the amount of time currently alotted for us in h-e-double hockeysticks. There are things we can do, starting today and for the rest of our lives, that can reduce the amount of time we might do there.
Everyone has made mistakes and everyone will eventually deal with them no matter how much they’ve tried to keep them secret from spirits and other humans in the human life.
I don’t know if the voices that I hear in schizophrenia are from dead spirits in various forms of the afterlife, or living spirits, or both, but I’ve learned a lot from them.
Father Jesus told me to write something down yesterday, and it goes something to the effect of this: “Getting lost between faith and a healthy distrust is where a lot of human problems lie.”
Please take care as the weather is changing around the Earth! Peace (2), Love (1), Knowledge (3), Understanding (4) and Respect (5).